After almost two weeks back at work under my belt, I found myself feeling eager to share some thoughts. It feels SO good to be back at work. Sometimes I feel guilty saying that because I really cherished and enjoyed every second I had home when I was laid off from my previous position. I was fortunate to have the opportunity to have an extended time to watch my sweet little girl grow into a caring, kind and honestly hilarious individual. She is so strong in her opinions and wants, and her vocabulary has grown immensely. I love hearing every word and phrase that comes out of her mouth, one funnier than the next. She’s so imaginative with her little dolls, always taking care of them as I sometimes document on my Instagram stories & feed. It’s just amazing how much she has changed in the 7 months I spent searching for a new job. I just keep telling myself how lucky I am that it took me that long to find something I love.
Back to the feelings of guilt, sometimes being a mom is just SO hard. There’s a constant push and pull going on inside your head and heart. Social media unfortunately doesn’t always help those feelings either. As soon as I landed my dream job, a girl on my FB shared an article about how important it is to stay home with your babies in their first few years of life and to be completely honest, it really pissed me off. I don’t know why because I know she shared it to spark conversation and to validate the time period she was spending home with her kids, which why should that piss me off….I guess it was just the timing, but honestly that’s how social media and the world work.
I pushed my feelings of guilt aside because I deserve to be happy too and to find purpose in my career life. I know that by going back to work I’m showing my daughter how to do it all, which I’m super excited about. This post is in no way shape or form to knock moms that choose to stay home. I actually have a HUGE respect for those moms that are selfless enough to put their career aspirations on hold to fulfill the most important job ever of raising future leaders, but I’m just not that mom. And that is okay!
I think sometimes as moms we put pressures on ourselves that are completely subconscious. Our brain is constantly absorbing things from all around us, things we don’t even realize we are absorbing. We then form feelings on ourselves based on what is absorbed. It’s SO important to rationalize with yourself and realize that sometimes all those crazy thoughts are exactly what they are…crazy thoughts! Some of the worries we have for our sweet little ones are just worries that are completely normal! I sometimes wish more moms would share what they worry about for their kiddos. Hearing others voice the same things that we are feeling would honestly be refreshing and validating.
I think that at the end of the day we just need to realize that we are all doing the absolute best that we can, or at least that’s what we should be doing. Regardless of what shape or form that takes whether it be in your career, your relationship with your spouse, relationship with your friends, or whatever it may be–you deserve your own happiness. But, you need to be your own advocate in seeking out that happiness. You can’t rely on others to do it for you.
I don’t know if anything I said makes sense, but I do think it is crucial and so important to be your own cheerleader every single day. I couldn’t be happier to be cheering myself on as I start my new job. The past two weeks have been invigorating and given me so much excitement. I’m so looking forward to having this journey unfold and to build huge successes along the way.
I hope you all have the best day and remember to be your own cheerleader.
Also, today is my husband’s birthday and let’s be serious I would never feel comfortable sharing anything I share without his ongoing support and cheering me on. Happy birthday sweet husband, you are literally the best thing that ever happened to me–most thoughtful person that ever joined my life on that amazing day in February of 2011!!! Hope you have the best day and an even better year!!! Let’s do this!!!
(The picture below & featured on this post will always and forever be one of my favorites. It was our first family vacation that I planned to OCMD in 2017. I accidentally booked it the same week as bike week which was an experience we will laugh about for the rest of our lives)